big week

So I turn the big 3-0 this week. I have really handled it well, I had a meltdown Saturday evening but that was partially about turning 30 and partially about the bone marrow biopsy that I am having tomorrow. Besides the pain and the cost of more medical tests to figure out what is wrong, I was/am sad about having to have these tests in the first place.
As far as age goes, I honestly was more upset about turning 25. As crazy as that may sound it hit me very hard because 25 rounds up to 30. I felt better about that when one of the baseball moms told me yesterday at a tourney that she was the same way.
So besides the test tomorrow, which from what I have been told, since that are extracting bone marrow from my hip, I will be very uncomfortable for a time. My thoughts, when the kids go to bed and Ryan goes back to the office, are about my life. Never in a million years did I picture myself turning 30 with 4 (amazing) kids and married for almost 10 years. I honestly always thought I would work outside the home and believe me, some days I think I want to. But I do love where God has me, at home raising my kids. I love them and Ryan very very much.
So since obviously nothing like employment is going to change before Thursday, I had plans to run the entire month of June and really get in shape and that didn't happen. So my big plans before I turn the big 3-0 Thursday is to get my hair cut and colored (to hide those less than desirable grays.) on Wednesday.
So to end this blah, rambling post I will include a song that I recently actually listened to the words on. Brandon and I heard it on our way to the baseball tournament yesterday and then we heard it again while I was driving him to golf lessons. It was great for both of us to hear and we both really like it.