it's worth it.

I haven't had food in 2 days and won't until sometime tomorrow afternoon and I was made to drink some absolutely disgusting stuff this afternoon, in which I couldn't keep half of it down. All for a colonoscopy tomorrow afternoon. This will be #6 in my lifetime (I was thinking up until today, when I had LOTS of time to think, that it was #7, but I was mistaken.) Anyway, at the age of 3 I had bleeding polyps and they have found some during every scope since. My maternal aunt had colon cancer. I am at risk.
While I have been very down today (partly due to a friend's sad news), crying a lot, just feeling blah (YUK!) I know it's all worth it. I've been embarrassed to tell people about tomorrow, obviously until right now. But I figure I need to because it's very serious and as my hematologist, who is the one ordering it, said as well as the pharmacist when I went to pick up my prescription, the prep for the colonoscopy is the worst (I agree wholeheartedly) and keeps people from having it down.
It's worth it. That's been my mantra yesterday, today and will be tomorrow as well.
Praying for good results. Have a great week.